Reflections on Faith, Surrender, and Making Room for Christ
“But Mary treasured up all these things and pondered them in her heart.” — Luke 2:19
Year after year, we return to the story we know so well—the birth of Jesus. We have heard it proclaimed, sung it in carols, and seen it displayed in nativity scenes. Yet this holy story is more than something we remember; it is something that continues to question us. The Nativity is not a silent scene frozen in time. It is alive with voices, decisions, faith, fear, obedience, and worship.
Today, the day after Christmas is quieter. The carols fade, the gifts are unwrapped, and life slowly returns to its familiar rhythm. Yet the story of Christmas does not end when the celebration is over. In many ways, it is only just beginning. The Nativity is more than a scene we display or a story we retell—it is a mirror held before our lives. Around the manger stand angels and shepherds, Mary and Joseph, wise men and kings, an innkeeper and a newborn child laid in a humble feeding trough. Each one encounters Christ differently. Each one responds in a way that reveals the condition of the heart. And so, on this day after Christmas, the question before us is simple yet searching ….Who are we in the Nativity story? How do we respond now that Christ has come—not just to Bethlehem, but to us?
The Angel: Bearers of Good News : Luke 2:8–14
The angel appears to the shepherds with words that still echo through the ages: “Do not be afraid. I bring you good news of great joy that will be for all the people.” The angel did not keep the message—he proclaimed it. He speaks peace into fear and hope into darkness.
So we ask ourselves: How do we carry the good news of Jesus today? Do our words bring peace, encouragement, and light? Do we allow the peace of Christ to rule in our own hearts before we try to share it with others?
Mary: Trusting God in Uncertainty – Luke 1:26–38
Mary received God’s call in a moment that overturns her understanding of the future. She does not have all the answers, yet she responded with trust: “I am the Lord’s servant. May your word to me be fulfilled.”Mary teaches us that faith does not require clarity—only surrender.
Where is God asking us to trust Him today? What uncertainties are we holding onto? Like Mary, will we say yes to God even when the path ahead is unclear?
Joseph: Obedience in the Quiet Place – Matthew 1:18–25
Joseph’s role is often silent, but his obedience speaks loudly. When faced with confusion and fear, he listens to God and chooses faithfulness. Joseph reminds us that following God may lead us down unexpected roads.
When God’s plan interrupts our own, how do we respond? Do we trust Him enough to obey—even when it differs from our own expectation, or when it costs us comfort or reputation?
The Shepherds: Responding with Joy – Luke 2:15–20
The shepherds heard the message and did not delay. Scripture tells us, “They hurried off and found Mary and Joseph, and the baby.” Their response was immediate, not meant to linger from a distance, joyful, and contagious, After seeing Jesus, they spread the word and glorify God.
What is our response to the good news of Christ? Do we run toward the Savior with open hearts? or Do we wait for the right time, more clarity or greater comfort before taking a step of faith? Are we willing to share the joy of Christmas with others?
The Wise Men: Worship and Offering – Matthew 2:1–12
The wise men journeyed far, guided by a star, seeking the King. When they found Him, they bowed down and worshiped, offering gifts fit for royalty. Their story asks us: What gift will we bring to Jesus? How will we honour Him as the King of our lives? What are we willing to lay aside to seek Jesus?Will we worship Him not only with words, but with our whole hearts—offering Him the very best of who we are?
Herod: The Fear of Surrender – Matthew 2:3–8, 16
Herod heard of the newborn King and is troubled. His fear turned into resistance, his pride into violence. He cannot surrender his throne. Herod’s story invites honest reflection:
What fears or pride keep us from fully surrendering to Christ? Are there areas of our lives where we cling to control, unwilling to let Jesus reign? Whenever we guard our own throne, we resist the peace of God.
The Innkeeper: Making Room – Luke 2:7
“There was no room for them in the inn.” Whether from busyness, distraction, or full schedules, the result is the same—no space for Christ.
Is there room for Jesus in our hearts today? Have we made space for Him in our lives, or are we too crowded with other concerns? Christ still comes humbly, still knocks gently. Will we open the door and welcome Him as Lord?
Gracious God, As we stand before the manger once more, Help us see ourselves in this holy story. Where we are afraid, speak peace. Where we are uncertain, teach us trust. Where we resist surrender, soften our hearts. Where our lives are crowded, help us make room. May we be messengers of good news like the angel, Trusting servants like Mary, Faithful and obedient like Joseph, Joyful witnesses like the shepherds, True worshippers like the wise men. And above all, Lord, May we welcome Christ not only into this season, But into every part of our lives. We offer ourselves to You anew, In the name of Jesus, Amen.
A tribute to my mother on her first year death anniversary
The garden held our laughter that day. Her hand on my shoulder, our eyes meeting — a quiet corner, now a sacred memory.
Holding Hands one last time
It’s been a year.
One year since I last held her hand. One year since our morning ritual, a quiet moment filled with routine and reverence — became our last. One year since we prayed together, not knowing it would be her final breath. I can still feel the warmth of her hand in mine. The stillness of that morning is etched in my heart — a silence that was both sacred and sorrowful.
Losing her felt like losing the ground beneath my feet. But caring for her, being with her in those final days, was the greatest gift I’ve ever received. She allowed us — me, my husband, my children — the blessing of loving her, serving her, and learning from her.
In her quiet way, she showed us what unconditional love looks like. She never raised her voice, not even during storms. She was like bamboo — strong, flexible, rooted. Even in pain, she was calm. Even in uncertainty, she was graceful.
I still miss her terribly. There are days when the longing is sharp, sudden. Other days, it’s a quiet ache that sits in the background of everything. But in the garden, I feel her. In the soft rhythm of prayer, I hear her. In every sunrise, I remember what she believed: that each new day is a gift. In every hymn I sing , I feel her near- as if her voice still lingers beside mine, whispering the words we once sang together.
She Wore Hats Like Crown
My mother had a way of finding joy in the simplest things—and one of them was wearing a hat. Whether it was to keep the sun off during a garden walk or to feel a little bit dressed up, she wore each one like a crown. Just the other day, I saw a beautiful hat in a charity store, and without a second thought, I bought it. It wasn’t until I got home that the wave hit me—she is not here anymore. I suppose, somewhere deep in my heart, I’m still living with the sense that she’s just around the corner, still choosing her hat, still near….
Her Life Was a Hymn
When she passed, she had already prepared her funeral service. She even chose the hymns to be sung. One of them was “How Lovely Is Thy Dwelling Place.” I remember hearing the words and knowing — this was her heart’s song. It wasn’t just a farewell; it was a homecoming. She is there now in that lovely dwelling place she longed for. Her life was a hymn, not just sung but lived…I made a promise to myself that I would learn to sing it — not just with melody, but with my life.
“How lovely is Thy dwelling place! Within Thy courts I long to be; Thy presence, Lord, my spirit craves, For this my heart cries out to Thee.“……….
She Woke in My Dream And Gave Me A Light
A few nights ago, I dreamt of her. In the dream, I knew this day — her first anniversary — was drawing near. I was preparing to speak at a memorial service and asked the pastor what Bible verse I should read. Before the pastor could answer, she stirred. She woke up, softly called my name, and handed me the Bible. The passage she gave me: Matthew 5:6–16, It begins with:
“Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they shall be filled…”
And ends with:
“Let your light shine before others that they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven”
That was her life — lived gently but brightly. She never sought attention, yet her light reached so many. She hungered for goodness, extended mercy, kept peace, and always,glorified God. In that dream, I believe she was reminding me: “This is who I was. This is what I pass on to you. “
Even in my dream she was guiding me. Even from beyond , she reminded me to live with meaning to shine with quiet strength, to glorify God with my life. And through that dream she gave me a light not only to remeber her but to carry forward
This blog , like the garden, like the quiet devotion and prayers we shared, began because of her . She loves beauty. She loves creating. She knew the tune of every hymn and the rythm of every season.
And so today,on her first anniversary- I write not just in remembrance, but in gratitude. I write in love. I write to say :
Thank you, Nanang,Nanay to my children, my Mother dearest. For the love. For the lessons. For the life you gave so fully. Even now, your strength carries me. Even now, your peace surrounds me. And through it all — your light still shines.
I set off to Herald Island today, hoping to catch the first light of dawn to prepare my heart as Lent draws near. There’s something deeply captivating about watching the sky transition from darkness to light – perhaps it is the quiet promise of a new beginning, a gentle reminder that no matter what yesterday held, today is a fresh start.
As I wandered along the island path, time seemed to slip away unnoticed, its passage gentle and unhurried. In those quiet moments just before the world stirred to life, I couldn’t help but marvel at the beauty of a new day slowly emerging from the stillness of night. It was as if the darkness, with all its mystery and uncertainty, gradually gave way to the warmth and clarity of the sun’s first light. Absorbed in the serenity of the island and the moment, I didn’t realise how much time had passed. By the time I found the perfect spot to greet the sunrise, it had already risen, its amber rays stretching across the horizon, painting the sky with warmth and promise. The chase had ended before it even began .
But maybe chasing the sunrise isn’t really about catching the first ray of light. Maybe its the journey, the quiet steps taken in the early morning hush, the sacred stillness before the world awakens. Maybe its about learning to embrace the in between, where anticipation meets acceptance, and where we find beauty not just the destination but in the act of seeking itself.
Life often feels like a chase- after dreams, after clarity, after something just beyond our reach. We set out with expectations believing we fill fulfillment only when we arrive at a certain place at a certain time. But sunrise do not wait to be caught, they unfold on their own time whether we stand ready or arrive a little late.
And yet even when we miss the first light, the sunshine still greet us, the day still begins. The warmth still touches our skin, and in that quiet golden moment, I am reminded that God’s promise is written in the sky. Every morning, with each sunrise, he offers new mercies, unfailing love and the assurance that we are never alone
“The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases; his mercies never come to an end;they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.” Lamentation 3: 22-23
So maybe the chase is not about reaching something first or perfectly. Maybe it is about learning to walk in faith, trusting that even when we do not see the whole picture, God is already preparing the way.
This morning, I set out to chase the sunrise, not just for its beauty but because, for me, it symbolizes Lent—a season of renewal, reflection, and a deeper commitment to follow God. Just as the sun rises each day without fail, so does His mercy, His grace, and His unwavering presence. In this time of Lent, I am reminded that faith is not about rushing to a destination but about walking daily with Him, even in moments of waiting and uncertainty.
And every sunrise is more than just a spectacle of light—it is an opportunity. A new beginning. A quiet invitation to rise again, even when I’ve lost my way. No matter how many times I stumble or lose track, God’s grace meets me in the morning, whispering that it is never too late to return, to realign, and to keep walking with Him.
I may not have caught the first light, but I found something greater—a renewed assurance that God’s love is steadfast, His promises are sure, and His faithfulness lights the way.
So I will keep moving forward—not because I have all the answers, but because I trust the One who leads me. And just like the sunrise, His presence will meet me, again and again, with new mercies each morning .
So I will keep chasing the sunrise, not just the light but the grace it brings…….
Lately, I’ve found myself drawn to nature. It’s not just the beauty of the landscapes that captivates me; it’s the quiet, the stillness, and the subtle sounds of the natural world that ground me in ways words can’t describe. There’s something about the hum of the earth beneath my feet and the air around me that settles my mind.
I began exploring coastlines, walkways and hiking trails, until I found myself following hidden paths leading to a secret place- a place where time slows down, where you can pause and simply be….. At the end of these winding trails, a waterfall awaits.
The rhythmic and soothing sound of cascading water is unlike any other sound I’ve heard, its almost like a nature’s lullaby. As the water falls from the rocks above, it creates a constant, calming hum that drowns out the chaos of the world. It’s as if the waterfall itself is inviting you to join in its stillness, to stop, breathe, and listen.
In these moments, the world feels distant and all that exists is the space around me – the air, the rocks, and the gentle sound of the water falling. The energy from the flowing water, and the quietness of the forest weave together into a perfect symphony of peace. It’s not just about the climb or the destination, but about finding yourself in the stillness that exists in places like these.
I’ve come to realize that nature, in its raw, unfiltered state, offers the kind of calm we often forget to seek in our busy lives. It doesn’t demand anything from you; as what my walking buddy kept telling me “it’s free”
The Fairy Falls
The first waterfall I visited was the Fairy Falls, tucked away in Waitakere Ranges hidden like a secret waiting to be discovered. To reach it, I descended through the lush canopies of towering ponga ferns and ancient kauri trees, their branches thick with life . The air was alive with the soft chirping of birds, a symphony of nature that echoed through the forest. As I approached the waterfall, I found myself getting swept up in the rhythm of its music—the soft, constant trickle of the smaller falls cascading down into the main pool. It was easy to get distracted, to lose track of the path, as I followed the sound of the water and the pull of its beauty. The closer I got, the more I wanted to immerse myself in it, almost forgetting the steepness of the trail behind me.
Fortunately, the trail was built with thoughtful care, and sturdy railings lined the way down. They offered something to hold onto as I navigated the tricky terrain. In that moment, the railing wasn’t just a physical support; it reminded me of the importance of structure in life. Just like the railings, there are moments when we need support—a guiding force to help us stay grounded when the pull of excitement or distractions tries to pull us off course. It’s easy to get lost in the allure of new experiences or the thrill of the unknown, but the presence of something steady, like those railings, can be the difference between plunging into the unknown without preparation and walking forward with confidence.
Life, like the trail, can be steep and unpredictable, but the right supports—whether they’re people, habits, or even moments of self-reflection—help us stay on track, guiding us when things get challenging.
When I finally reached the waterfall, it was everything I had hoped for — majestic, inviting, and calming all at once. Without even thinking, I found myself dipping my toes into the cool pool beneath the falls, the water rushing over my feet in a way that made me feel lighter. It was as if, in that moment, all my worries—especially the thought of the steep trail I’d have to climb back—disappeared. The beauty of the waterfall washed over me, and all I could do was surrender to its peaceful embrace. The sensation of the water, the rhythm of the falls, and the stillness that settled deep within me were all I needed. In that stillness, I realized how often we fight against life’s flow, when sometimes, the true beauty lies in simply surrendering to what is, in letting go of control and trusting the current to guide us.
And just as the sturdy railings guided me safely down, the water guided me into a space of calm, showing me the power of surrender and stillness. Both the trail and the falls became metaphors for life—reminding me that, while we may need support to navigate the rough patches, there are also moments where we must trust and release ourselves to the present, knowing that sometimes, the greatest peace comes when we let go.
TheOakley Creek Falls
In the heart of the city, where the thrum of life never truly quiets, I found a path leading to a hidden oasis—a place where the water falls.
The second waterfall I visited is nestled quietly among the trees and established bush in the city’s green haven – the Oakley Creek Falls. The path was easy, with no rough terrain just gentle slopes instead of steep climbs, inviting me to follow the path without effort. As I walked along the smooth path leading to the waterfall, the sounds of the city began to fade, replaced by the gentle rustling of leaves and the soft murmur of flowing water.
The waterfall stood before me, its waters cascading gracefully , a serene sight amidst the greenery. Though the water’s surface shimmered with the promise of a refreshing dip, a notice board greeted me, its simple message clear: Swimming Not Allowed. I smiled quietly to myself, understanding that the invitation here wasn’t for immersion in the water but for immersion in the stillness that surrounded it. I wasn’t here to swim. I had come for something much deeper—a moment of stillness, a retreat from the noise that often overwhelms the mind. Finding a solid rock at the water’s edge, I sat, letting the cool stone anchor me to the earth. The moment felt sacred, as though nature had gently whispered, “Here, you are meant to rest.”
As I closed my eyes, a verse from Psalm 55:22 came to mind: “Cast your burden on the Lord, and He shall sustain you; He shall never permit the righteous to be moved.” These words, simple yet profound, resonated deeply within me. In the stillness of the moment, I meditated on them, allowing the cascading sound of the waterfall to carry away the weight of my worries.
The waterfall, though constant in its flow, brought a sense of peace—not in rushing to a destination, but in simply being present with the sound. It was a reminder that stillness doesn’t come from stillness itself but from the steady rhythm that brings a calming presence to the chaos around us.
The Kite Kite Falls
After visiting two serene waterfalls, I set my sights on a third—a place where nature demands a little more effort, but promises a grander reward. Unlike the smooth, gentle paths of the first two waterfalls the path was not for the faint of heart. The climb was steep, with few railings to hold onto. I can no longer remember how many steps of the stairs that I have climbed but every step required careful attention, each movement demanded a test of agility and balance as the narrow trail wound up the hillside. With each upward step, I could feel the challenge becoming more tangible, but the promise of the waterfall at the top kept me moving. Yes, I would say, the climb was not easy, (for me) but there was something exhilarating about it. It wasn’t just a hike; it was a journey—a test of patience and determination. Each step felt like a decision, a commitment to push forward, no turning back now.
Finally, as I crested the last of the steep incline, Kite Kite Falls revealed itself in all its glory. The waterfall stood tall and powerful, its waters cascading down the rocks in a mesmerizing display of nature’s force. The sight was nothing short of spectacular, the sound of the water’s descent filling the air with a sense of triumph and awe. I stood there, taking in the grandeur of the scene, feeling both humbled and invigorated by the experience. Kite Kite Falls reminded me that sometimes, the most breathtaking rewards are found after the hardest climbs.
I sat at the edge of the falls, and closed my eyes, took a deep breath, letting the cool mist enveloped me like a calming embrace. The moment was overwhelming in its peace, and without thinking I began to sing.
“O Lord my God, when I in awesome wonder…”The words ofHow Great Thou Art flowed from me, belted out in the open air, blending with the natural symphony of rushing water and the wind through the trees. I didn’t care if anyone thought I looked foolish, standing there, lost in the power of the moment. I was not just singing a hymn; I was offering my heart in that place of immense beauty, where nature and spirit seemed to collide.
In that moment, I felt something profound. The climb, the sweat, the struggle—it all faded into the background. There was only the sound of the water, the feeling of the mist on my skin, and the echo of the hymn in my soul. Whether others thought I was a fool or not didn’t matter. I was in a space where the beauty of the world met the quiet joy of surrender, where my soul could simply rejoice in the greatness of it all.
After belting out the hymn with all my heart, I felt the pull to immerse myself even further in the moment. I was drawn to the falls—its powerful beauty inviting me to get closer, So, without hesitation, I stepped onto a partially submerged rock near the edge of the water. The surface was slippery, slick with the constant mist and movement of the water.
For a moment, I lost my footing, the rock betraying me as I struggled to keep my balance. But instead of panic, I found myself laughing. The sound of my laughter echoed briefly in the midst of the waterfall’s roar. It was a laughter free of embarrassment, a laughter that came not from a place of foolishness, but from a realization. The risk I took in wanting to get closer—to feel the falls more deeply, to be in the heart of it—was a reflection of life itself.
In life, we often step onto slippery rocks, choosing to take risks and venture toward something greater, something beautiful, even when the path is uncertain. We may stumble, lose our footing, and even fall. Yet, in those moments of vulnerability and uncertainty, we are reminded that the journey itself is where the richness lies. The slip was a reminder that growth requires moments of discomfort, moments when we laugh at ourselves rather than shy away from the risk.
I had stepped forward, seeking a deeper connection with the falls, and in doing so, I was reminded that in life, it is not always about staying safe or avoiding mistakes. It’s about daring to get closer to what matters, to what moves us, even if it means laughing in the face of a slip, knowing it is all part of the process of truly embracing the journey
As I sat there, caught in the majesty of Kite Kite Falls, I realized I hadn’t taken a lot of photos to capture the moment. There was no need. The beauty of the moment, the richness of the experience, wasn’t something that could be captured in a photograph. I had been too in tune with the falls, with the gentle roar of the water, the mist on my skin, and the quiet laughter in my heart. It was a beauty that transcended the need to preserve it in an image—it was a beauty meant to be felt, not framed.
Amidst the powerful roar of the waterfalls I visited, I discovered a profound stillness that transcends sound. Though the water cascaded loudly, the moment was not defined by the noise, but by a deep inner calm that emerged from simply being present. Each waterfall, whether gently flowing or forcefully tumbling, invited me into a space where I could pause, listen, and let go of everything. It was a stillness not of silence, but of peace—a stillness that connects us to something greater, even in the midst of life’s noise. The true beauty of nature is found in these quiet moments, where the sound itself becomes part of the tranquility within…….
Dear Zara, thank you for sharing your wonderful insights from your hiking trips. As someone who has recently started to do more walking, I have also grown to appreciate the calm and peace that nature brings. It has been a particularly tumultuous time these last few months, so thank you for sharing Psalm 55:22 alongside your hiking experiences. It reminds me of God’s goodness and how he provides us with moments of stillness in this unpredictable life, as you said. Nature is indeed a gift, and your pictures and writing inspire me to one day do a bit of hiking myself.
Thank you for sharing! I look forward to your next 😊💗
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